So I finally caved...
Jul. 27th, 2009 09:25 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
polychrome_penAnd got the Plus account. The temptation was just too great - I wanted those extra Userpics like whoa. Still considering what I'll fill them out with, though. XD
School has been nasty lately. Finals start this Wednesday, and for the first time since first semester I'm really afraid of failing. I feel like I'm beating my head against the wall with this material. Repeatedly. I spent thirteen hours studying yesterday. Thirteen hours! I only took a real break around 8 for dinner/Merlin.
Last Tuesday was my final piano lesson before Rotations (haha, if I actually make it there!). I can't believe it's been two years since I started taking lessons. My teacher said I've actually made quite good progress, which was actually really touching. Even though I had to be there at 7:45 am and couldn't always practice as much as I should have, I'm really glad I took lessons. It showed me I can still do something musical in my life, which up to that point was decidedly void of most creative endeavors for several depressing years. If I don't make it to Rotations, I'll definitely start up lesson again. And if I do make it, then I'll start up lessons again after I'm done. I won't let the progress I've made go to waste!
The part of my brain that likes to make contingency plans wonders what I would do for 8 months if I have to go out of the program. Part of me would be really depressed, but another side would be so happy for a break. I know this kind of thinking is a bit defeatist, but I can't help it.
1. I would definitely work more. Monieeees. This would also net me a lot more intern hours.
2. Get in shape/Go to the gym every day. It would really be the perfect opportunity.
3. Chip away at my library.
4. Write a little every day, and finish a story.
5. Take more piano.
6. Maybe take a few fun classes like Italian.
7. Actually spend time with the friends I feel like I never get to see.
8. Travel a bit.
9. Have a life.
But anyway...back to studying!
School has been nasty lately. Finals start this Wednesday, and for the first time since first semester I'm really afraid of failing. I feel like I'm beating my head against the wall with this material. Repeatedly. I spent thirteen hours studying yesterday. Thirteen hours! I only took a real break around 8 for dinner/Merlin.
Last Tuesday was my final piano lesson before Rotations (haha, if I actually make it there!). I can't believe it's been two years since I started taking lessons. My teacher said I've actually made quite good progress, which was actually really touching. Even though I had to be there at 7:45 am and couldn't always practice as much as I should have, I'm really glad I took lessons. It showed me I can still do something musical in my life, which up to that point was decidedly void of most creative endeavors for several depressing years. If I don't make it to Rotations, I'll definitely start up lesson again. And if I do make it, then I'll start up lessons again after I'm done. I won't let the progress I've made go to waste!
The part of my brain that likes to make contingency plans wonders what I would do for 8 months if I have to go out of the program. Part of me would be really depressed, but another side would be so happy for a break. I know this kind of thinking is a bit defeatist, but I can't help it.
1. I would definitely work more. Monieeees. This would also net me a lot more intern hours.
2. Get in shape/Go to the gym every day. It would really be the perfect opportunity.
3. Chip away at my library.
4. Write a little every day, and finish a story.
5. Take more piano.
6. Maybe take a few fun classes like Italian.
7. Actually spend time with the friends I feel like I never get to see.
8. Travel a bit.
9. Have a life.
But anyway...back to studying!
